You're so beautiful.

I know you don't want to leave here to go back to the place you're from, so don't you worry about a thing. You lay still while I do all the work. We can't stay, but while we have time, let's make it worth it. I see you there with your armour and your make believe army, but I still see you. Your forged beliefs mean nothing to me. I wish you could see what I see. See that you're ridiculous guard is keeping your heart from everyone including yourself. Lay your defenses down, and be here now. Show me who you are behind it all. Because no matter what you've convinced yourself of, I'm not running. I'm here standing still in front of you with my heart in my palm and my arms spread wide. Patiently. And I know they'll say it's wrong for us to love and speak the way we do, but that won't stop me anyhow. It's you. It's been you all along. And when the moment finally comes that they attack, we may be bare but we'll be prepared. And no apologies will be made because happiness will be our true defeat. I know that with you next to me, we can stand strong together. But for now, lay your defenses down and be here now

My wonderland.

Sometimes I feel so small, and sometimes I'm confused. Sometimes I start fights, and sometimes I get hurt. But I'm a girl with my entire life ahead of me. I'm fan of the stars and pretty sunsets. I'm in love with everyone I meet. I'll give you a chance even if I don't have one myself. I'll love you for your accomplishments, but I'll love you more for you imperfections. I can barely stand on my own two feet and I fall over myself, but I'll make sure to stand long enough to hold you up. I'm always too hot, or too cold. I don't want to shake your hand and say "pleasure to meet you.", I want to give you a hug and tell you how beautiful you are. I like flowers in my hair, skirts and bare feet. When the wind is blowing, I want to dance with it. And when it rains, I always make sure to find the BIGGEST puddles to jump in. I like to curl my hair and paint my nails. And every time I see a rainbow, my breath gets taken away. I may be small, and I may be quiet, but I am alive and I am happy for whatever that's worth.

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow,
Nothin's on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain,
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
That she was right here in my arms tonight,
But here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had
That she was right here in my arms tonight,
But here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
Oh, all alone,
But here comes goodbye

Here's to goodbyes.

I promised I'd be strong, but how much longer will I have to bite my tongue?
You've let me down, you've hurt me.
I'm sitting here staring at the door, just praying you'll surprise me and walk through it. I'm wasting all my time thinking about this. But I don't know if I have the strength to walk away.. even though everything inside of me is telling me to.

Do I stand up and take the blows so you can feel some relief? It's one empty promise after another, and I'm breaking.

It wasn't supposed to be this way! We were supposed to be happy, inseperable.
And now it's just... this.

When you whisper you love me, your eyes say the same.

When you call me,
When I see you walk through the door,
When you look at me with those eyes,
When you reach for my hand,
When you pull me closer,
When you say my name,
When you tell me I'm beautiful,
When you hold me,
When you lift my head up and kiss me,
When you touch me,
When you laugh,
When we cook together,
When you joke with me,
When we wrestle,
When we watch the stars,
When we go on walks,
When we lay together listening to music,
When we sleep,
When I'm just about to fall asleep and I feel you roll over and whisper "I love you."
When you turn "gangsta" on me,
When you're with me,
I can feel it from my head to my toes that I am so entirely in love with you.

If you're wondering.

If you're wondering, this is me. I am human, I make mistakes. Oh, but I'm in love. I'd do anything and everything to keep calling you mine. To keep you around. So if you're wondering, I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere. I'll stand here tall with my feet on the ground, I'll be brave and tough and I won't let you see how much control you have over me. So if you're wondering, I love you more than you could ever know.